Divine Interruption

Tomorrow morning I am back to my usual schedule after this Christmas break. I've loved having two weeks off, we traveled less this year than ever with Buddy trying to save his days off for our trip to Uganda. Because of that, we didn't make the usual trip after Christmas to Montgomery to visit the Hannah clan. We had seen everyone Thanksgiving and that made not going a little easier but we stilled missed visiting with all Buddy's brothers and their families.

You know, Christianity truly is a relationship. A relationship with God through Christ. I was reminded of this again this past week two different times. To be honest, sometimes I lie awake at night and worry. I don't worry about Bobby but often I worry about finances (adoption, two children in college in the fall, me not working) and other things. Anyway, instead of taking my thoughts captive, they take me captive, make a huge jump and doubts begin to pile up. Well, after one of those nights, the next morning I spent some time talking to Jesus about it and then left for the Y. After exercising and on my way out I picked up a scripture slip. You know what Jesus told me - "The LORD is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?" Psalm 27:1 Of course I know that! It still amazes me that God listens!

Later that week, again at the Y (the only two days I went this week), as Buddy and I were leaving, we ran into a friend who is adopting two little boys from the Amani orphanage. We discussed this and how we are trying to be patient with the wait and how we know God is in control of the timing. When I got to the car I read the scripture slip I picked up this time which read, " Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed; Neither be disgraced, for you will not be put to shame; For you will forget the shame of your youth, and will not remember the reproach of your widowhood anymore." Isaiah 54:4 In scripture, God links widows and orphans very often. I feel like God is telling us, "I am in this, I chose this for you and gave you this desire, stop worrying and trust me and I will make this a great thing."

Thanks for reading this long post, pray for our family, we have a lot going on and as parents, Buddy and I need to only stay focused on desiring God. Desiring God alone and longing after Him. That is my prayer for now and this year. Everything else - worry, fear, insecurity, false gods - fall away when I do this. I know that even the desire to desire God is a gift from God and I am grateful. Again, thanks.